I woke up crying.
I am here and writing all I can remember.
It was you. It was you in my dreams.
You were chasing me. Went to all the places I went to. Chasing all PUVs I've ridden to talk to me, until you did catch up.
It is heartbreaking because you were asking for forgiveness, when I know in real life you wouldn't ask for any. You were very insistent to be forgiven. Until you did what you always do, again. And have used a friend as an excuse.
Then you went back to me and continued to ask for forgiveness as if nothing happened. I was crying in my dreams because I was disappointed and fooled, again.
And then I woke up crying. I just slept for around 2 hours.
I am still crying as I write this.
I have forgiven you a long time ago. I am happy now with my current state. Alone again, but happy. I might not be able to go back from before "us" happened, but I am okay now. I just don't know why I dreamt of you.
You still have that effect on me, I won't deny it. One word from you and the wall I have started building again, will shatter to pieces. And that is how much I despise your presence too.
I am okay. These tears will stop, eyes will run out of it. I will be able to fall asleep again, like I always do. But the dream I had earlier will still play in my mind.
