Why Do I Love You?

Simply...

...because you can make me laugh even though I feel like crying. 

...because you can make me jealous and happy at the same time. 

...because you don't bring out the best in me but you made me see beyond the bestest me.

...because I am me when I am with you and you are you when you're with me. 

...because I can fart and burp all I want in front of you without even thinking that you might get turned off of that.

...because you are my friend even before I fell for you. 

Most importantly, I love you because...

...you made me realize you are not worth loving and I am worthy of a man who can speak his heart out and tell me that he does love me in any way he can.

And I thank you for that. 

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How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.

I love thee to the depth and breadth and height

My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight

For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

I love thee to the level of everyday's

Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.

I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;

I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

I love thee with a passion put to use

In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.

I love thee with a love I seemed to lose

With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath,

Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose,

I shall but love thee better after death.

I don't love you.

I've been away for a while and it made me think about some things and some people. I can now say, without pain in my heart, that I don't feel anything towards you except that I do care for you as my friend, as a brother. Must be because you were there during those times that he wasn't, you were the one, aside from my girl friends, patiently talking to me then, you were my constant textmate and virtual buddy then. And when things started to fall apart, you were there to catch me and help me get back on my feet again. You were there like any brother would be for her sister and I misconstrued it. I was reading it wrong all this time. I was sending wrong signals to each and every part of my brain and my heart.

I don't love you because it's still him. After all that has been said and done, it's still him. After all the tears that I cried, it's still him. After all the psychological sickness that I've had, it's still him. You just helped me cope up and move on from him. 

You don't have to worry now, you and my girl friends, I am fine. I do still love the guy, who made me cry buckets of tears, but I won't let the same thing happen to me. I have all of you behind me. I have all your love to make life more meaningful. But I don't love you now, the way that I thought I do. 

Never Forget

Friend:

Remember the bad so you can be forgiving
Remember the good so you can be thankful
And you will be a better person.

Me:

If I do, will they remember me? that I forgave them?
If I do, will they be thankful to me as well?
I want to be the best that I can be, but I’m struggling each and everyday.
One day I am 90% best, the next day I am not even 50% of what I used to be the previous day.
I want. I really do.

Sad…

My Heart Has A Mind Of Its Own

People try and tell me that its crazy
You and I were never meant to be
I don't believe they know,
and even if it's so
I'm fallen anyway, no matter what they say.

Refrain:
A part of me is taking me by the hand
The world can't see
Still they can't understand
Why can't they understand. . . .

Chorus:
My heart has a mind of its own
Right or wrong its gonna do
Only what it feels is true
I'll follow it wherever it goes
Anywhere it leads me to
My heart has a mind, mind of its own.

Maybe we won't always be together
Maybe this'll last a thousand year
Ain't nobody knows, and even if they did
It wouldn't matter now
I'd love you anyhow.

Repeat Refrain and Chorus

My heart knows what I'm needing
My heart knows what I'm feeling
It knows me better than I know myself
My heart knows what I'm missin'
All I have to do is listen
And listen well. . . .

Repeat Chorus

Wish

If only I could go back to being young again, when wishes were given to those who celebrate their birthdays, even though I don't really celebrate mime, I'll make sure to buy me a cake and candles, and make my wish as I blew the candles. Hoping that the wind will blew my wish up and away, and make the love spirit lead its way to you. For now I know, that you were the wish that I never had. The wish that I forgot to ask. The wish that will forever be a wish. 

I Just Have To Stop

I just have to stop loving you...
I want to, but my heart can't...
Please teach me how, show me how...
So I can just stop.